Can't expect myself to cry in the polyclinic just like that! Second time I'm like this. The doctor even remember me as the one who cried badly. My mum make me cry even worse. Idk why. This is definitely a big test for me. When I thought the test is over, no it is not. Can't expect myself to be like this. Seriously a big fat failure. I have to stay strong. Stop crying! Crying will not help.
In addition, I know who concern me more. Really thankful for those there for me when I need them. But where is the one I need most?
I cried badly again. Reading your msg., made me feel even worse. Care and concern is not like this. I can totally imagine if we played the opposite role, what will be my reaction. Studies over concern? Sorry, I'm not like this. Maybe it's just different perception. Maybe I think too much. Maybe I wasn't even as important as well. Deep down me I hope for a better reply but? Crying is now my hobby. Nothing beats crying big time and standing strong again. Now little things also make me cry. Am I such a useless person?
All I want to say ily. I really do.